Peaceful Moments

its these moments that i savor life. my husband snoring, my dog snoring, the cat purring...just  checked on the hot little boy kicking off his covers and the daughter burrowed under her pillows DEAD to the world. the peace that covers the house. makes the messy kitchen feel clean, the laundry disappears and i feel organized. i know its fleeting but still i enjoy that feeling of pure bliss. warmth, contentment and peace.
happy thanksgiving to the world and the ones i love.

10 year old Hurricane

hurricane sandy has nothing on hurricane hannah. i certainly don't want to diminish the tragedy that affected so many people on the east coast but we had our own weather anomoly. 10 year old Hannah.
i know other mothers are going through this so i do feel better knowing that we are not alone in this unstable, unpredictable stage of puberty. but oh my goodness. i know that i had grand illusions of not repeating mistakes that my mother made with me (or what i thought were mistakes) and being a mother that my daughter will want to be a part of her life for a very long time. but when that little devil comes out, i wonder what the heck i ate during my pregnancy that spurs that behavior? its like a literal switch is flipped and all reason/logic/respect goes out the window. i know 10 year olds are just figuring those things out anyway but holy heck.
linda blair/damien/they all come into mind. i have to laugh which makes it worse. i find that its either blazing angry that she could chose now to have a fit and hysterical laughter that my sweet little girl is this raving lunatic? the voice changes, the eyes get a little crazy and there is absolutely no reasoning with her. its like she cannot hear you through the screeching.

i suppose its the blessing of motherhood, the constant learning and adapting of the ideals you thought you would practice. i often wonder if i was a fulltime mother if my kids would be different. of course they would be..but would it be better? i have to say no because i don't know that it would have been right for me. so stop that line of thinking and figure out how to deal with these hurricanes? i mean my darling little girl is in there. when she is on, its a miracle. people often comment on how amazing she is, organized, mature, helpful....maybe that is too much pressure? and like nature it explodes into a whirlwind that has to run its course.
thanks blog for letting me blab.